Thursday, December 16, 2010

better understand

So I thought I had saved my draft from a previous post and be ready to just edit.

Review of what I have been up to since my last post. This will be short, are you ready? Nothing. I mean I' m still alive and kicking, but just there you know. However, I finished reading a book that took me forever to read- Jane Eyre. When I mean "it took me forever to read", is because I always had the book and never really picked it up. And now that I'm done I'm quite depressed I have nothing to look forward to. Charlotte Bronte is an amazing author, she too like D. Oliver in one of my previous posts is incredibly gifted with words. Bronte, is an inundation of eloquence. I felt like I related to Jane in so many character aspects, I felt like she was a friend who was giving me advice and guiding me along with her heart.
At one point in my reading, I felt so amazed when Jane leaves Mr. Rochester. I couldn't believe the audacity, the strength and courage that overflowed and guided her. And how Jane expresses and hopes that no person ever have to do what she did. I was sad, I had to realize that this story was going to end not the way I pictured it, she did not marry Rochester. Most love stories lead to a beauty/damsel to be saved and loved from a man, we always assume and know that their love is passionate and authentic. Jane Eyre we TRULY KNOW her feelings and thoughts but we are at her side day by day in her discovery of these emotions and especially of love. Jane isn't a beauty and is not a damsel, she carries herself with respect, dignity, she is plain and has a mind of her own that she greatly expresses! So when her day came to truly express her heart, she did so with compassion and partial truth. I say partial truth because of their economic standing and because the reader can clearly see one side because of all the facts given from one party. So to read and almost feel that confession of the heart and have another confession follow was thrilling. She found her match, Jane loved Rochester, and Rochester longed to be hers. It was exciting, the poor girl the plain but intelligent lady won the heart of a man. Love triumphed. Slowly when more truth reveals itself everything falls apart, which is why communication is essential in every relationship. As I began to continue reading, I couldn't believe she fought her love. Yet, at the same time I authentically realized that all true stories have that fateful ending. No love at the end, fantasy is just a dreamworld.I can recall the ending of that chapter, her heart and soul torn. I was in my bed lying awake, wondering if I had ever had feelings like that for anyone else. For minutes, nothing came to mind which lead me into more contemplation of love. How beautiful and painstaking it can be. Most girls, do yearn for a love of honest and truth between their spouse, a prince charming, a knight to save, but sometimes those visions or conditioning yearnings are far from it.
*sigh* I love LOVE STORIES too much. I feel that I'm revealing myself too much!

On another note, Harry Potter was amazing! I was able to witness the movie premiere that day with other fans across the world. I want to watch it again as I think of it. I know, if I were a "true fan" by now I would have watched 3 or 4 times, but no I have not. I wanted to cry at the end because I know this wizard world is coming to an end. Dobie, made a great exit for his part!

Harry Potter series has a beautiful friendship with Hermione and Ron, loyal and loving.
Believe it or not, Harry Potter has given me a visual picture and better understanding of my faith. Yes, it sounds ridiculous, petty, unimaginable and insulting. Let me explain.

I'm Catholic, I'm in love with my faith and Christ. I find my Catholic faith to be rich in heritage and a large family. I don't want to give anyone the chance to question me or vent at me, but let me give my small opinion. OK, three movies have assisted in creating a visual or clearer picture as a whole: Harry Potter, Chronicles of Narnia, and Lord of the Rings. These three as of now have fictional informed me of the great battle. The "battle" I refer to is a universal theme, the battle of GOOD vs. EVIL.
Other than the obvious to grasp an audience's attention of "fights" and "war", there is just like Ron states, "a bigger than you" theme. Let's take a few steps back again, to the battle reference.
The GOOD I refer to is the contemplation of, loyalty, obedience and love. The EVIL would be the deception, pride, and selfishness. Even amongst the three subtopics can be seen as well, for loyalty it could be seen as loyalty to self, remembering who you are and the path of truth; loyalty of friendships; loyalty to the world- which could also be obedience of something bigger than yourself.
For a child, it is quite obvious among the movies who is who and what sides they are on in the GOOD VS. EVIL
Harry Potter vs. Voldermont
Frodo vs. Eye
Aslan vs Witch

It's amazing what a child sees and feels. Yes, feels. There is something deeply rooted with our very selves, our hearts are designed for love so when anything corrupts that it corrupts the whole which is our bodies. And lead to a sickening twist of things- deception of self.
My whole point of the Good vs. Evil topic and subtopics is this theme is universal because we struggle with everyday. Since this battle was first present in the bible, St. Michael and Archangels vs the Fallen Angels. It is known in Revelations chapters 12-14, that Fallen Angels outnumbered the Angels and even then they were defeated and exiled. And with most of these mentioned movies, it is the same. The small good faithful team is always outnumbered even in defense, but the obedience and love for the greater good triumphs. The obedience and love for the greater good always begins with denying of oneself for another, altruistic almost. "There is no greater love than to lay down his lay for his friends."(Jn 15:13).

Wednesday, September 1, 2010


I don't know what it is but...
I might actually want to try something different.

Try different food, try a different look, try colors, try living in a different state and etc.
The idea sounds exhilarating and adventurous but when I deeply contemplate everything like logistics, friends, and such I freeze.

Truthfully, many random thoughts have been running lucid in my mind and I can't help and engage in quite the few. I have this feeling that I will do something great and be happy.
I want to live an adventurous life, not necessarily spontaneously but the keyword in this post, different.

I wish I was better at expressing myself in words like people normally do, unfortunately I'm not gifted. Which brings me to an author, David Oliver Relin, he is absolutely amazing. I read his book of which he was inspired by Greg Mortenson, "Three cups of tea, One Man's journey in promoting world peace" and I was so sad when I was in my last chapter. I truly felt like I was part of their journey and meeting everyone they met, his words are just like a river they flow beautifully and have a great ardor that one can't help and admire. He is one of those authors that I wish and dreamed of having his talent by capturing an audience and expressing beauty and human emotion with words. I hope to read another work by him soon.

Friday, August 20, 2010


Music, can put me in any mood or relieve me of stress.
I am currently listening to more indie and such, I love it.
I always like jotting down random emotions and phrases that pop into my
tiny nugget and love that there is a song out there about it.
Of course more elaborate and melodious...

I have one in particular favorite song that if I begin to listen to it, I will want to hear it all day.
Explosions in the Sky- Your hand in mine, this band is from Austin, TX and instrumental.
It is amazing, there are times when words are just never enough, and when that happens one
must close their eyes and let their emotions release from their body to blend in with the music surrounding them. If you get a chance listen to it. The ardor of this music and emotions is quite the remedy formula for anything.

Or Rosie Thomas, I feel like she can see right through my heart and its thoughts.
"Say Hello", "Sell all my things", and "Red Rover" are my favorites. They have the same tone and ambiance but these short minute songs are captivating nonetheless.

Music is this powerhouse that roots down to the very emotion, thought, and opinion one feels.
Many philosophers have even stated that why make stricter laws when the best way to control society is through music. It is universal and common ground we feel in our bodies, minds and hearts. When you see metal angst rock concerts what do you see? Flying fists and kicks, lacerations from hair or body hits, blood and etc. It is violent, maybe for some it is an opportunity to release stress and angry while others it just makes it worst and can encourage similar behavior. It is quite a site, I don't know much about that music because it isn't my taste per se and yet I know about some bands still and know at least one song.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

I want to do this..

Day 01 - A picture of yourself
Day 02 - A picture of what you wore today
Day 03 - A picture of what you did today
Day 04 - A picture of where you went today
Day 05 - A picture of your morning
Day 06 - A picture that inspires you
Day 07 - A picture that makes you cry
Day 08 - A picture of yourself
Day 09 - A picture of what you had for lunch
Day 10 - A picture of what you like to do
Day 11 - A picture of your favorite drink
Day 12 - A picture of your favorite food
Day 13 - A picture of your friends
Day 14 - A picture of your favorite teacher(s)
Day 15 - A picture of yourself
Day 16 - A picture of your dream cell phone
Day 17 - A picture of your mp3 player
Day 18 - A picture of your room
Day 19 - A picture of your favorite musical instrument(s)
Day 20 - A picture of where you want to honeymoon
Day 21 - A picture that makes you think of your loved one
Day 22 - A picture of yourself
Day 23 - A picture that describes your life
Day 24 - A picture of what you did today
Day 25 - A picture that you edited
Day 26 - A picture that makes you angry
Day 27 - A picture of you more than 10 years ago
Day 28 - A picture of what you wore today
Day 29 - A picture of yourself
Day 30 - A picture of you and your best friend

Monday, July 26, 2010

Carpal tunnel syndrome


Ever since becoming full-time at this desk job. I have noticed certain limbs and parts of my body that feel unloved. I also have taken note that my right hand is basically glued to the mouse, making my wrist look sad. OK, as you read this I want you to stretch out your right wrist in circles going in and out. Stretch the wrist up and down and all around.
Not only that but my lower palms are resting in the "suggested area" to relax them, they don't feel relaxed. I don't know if my position or routine is safe at all? I have a feeling that it isn't.
Have you ever heard of Carpal tunnel syndrome, I have and at the moment I can't recall the exact explanation or describe symptoms, but let me give it a shot. Carpal tunnel syndrome might possible swell your rotational joints around your wrist, if not swell then harden affecting the flexibility and limberness of those joints causing pain in your wrists. The common folk to receive such luck are string- players (violists, cellist and etc.), athletes (tennis or hockey players) and from spending too many hours on a computer due to keyboard and mouse use.

So give your hands, palms, and fingers some exercise. I love you limbs, digits and rotational joints!

Stretch your back as well, move the pelvis around town and shake the legs like Mr. Presley use too.

It's Monday and its been 2 hrs and 30 minutes since I had lunch.
First time ever having Wendy's Chili and I must admit it was delicious.

I am trying to welcome veggies, fruits, and fiber into my life with open arms. It is easier said than done, but I really do want to live forever and the secret to that is good raw food and Vaseline to prevent wrinkles on the face. Did I say forever? Forever is a long time, I meant to say is live happily and with good energy.

Energy, I learned that I'm not a morning person. Today as a matter of fact. I actually have learned to LOVE sleep when it is needed of course. Naps are great remedies for headaches as well. Get plenty of rest folks, does the body good!

Tomorrow or later on maybe I will get inspired and type something else.
for now.

Oodles and oodles of TOODLES

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Check out this story, amazing.
I find these survivors to be rare and beautiful gems, because only a few of them are alive.
I wish his story was available in English, I would enjoy reading it.
First time user and this feels like an online journal, oh wait it is.
The few good reasons for starting this blog is to practice extensive vocabulary,
sentence structure, and better my grammar.
Oh! How can I forget one of the main reasons, which is the similar reasons I share with other fellow bloggers, to share my view of what I see and feel.

At the moment, I am currently at work and entering into my lunch period. I am keep having a staring contest with my GRE study guide(s). I am preparing for the test which is about two weeks away and do not feel nowhere ready. As many of you know the GRE is a Graduate admissions test that is required for Graduate school. Yet, I have had a change of heart and now unsure of what I want to continue to study. I am in no rush, have you noticed the influx of job offerings or opening for college graduates? Yeah, not too high and clearly more competitive. I do not have outstanding credentials as of yet, but I'm working on them. I hope meantime working "full-time" in a clerical position I learn as much as I can.

What I want is to truly discover other opportunities whether paid or unpaid that will continue to unravel and open my eyes to the beauty of the world and endless possibilities of what I may choose to do in the future. For now, I will focus on grasping my appetite and nourishing my body by eating lunch.

Ta-ta for now.